Change of Life

I am sure all of my readers have been sick at least once in their lifetime whether that be a cold, strep throat or just a stomach virus. It also probably didn’t take long for y’all to get over those illnesses, Maybe 3 days to a week max? Well how would you feel if I told you it would take 2 to 3 weeks to get over your cold or your stomach virus? What would go through your head knowing you have to deal with this for a while and only with medicine that simply masks the symptoms for maybe a couple hours at a time? Well I can literally answer all of those questions. My disease I have that required me to get an organ transplant made me become immunocompromised as well as the disease itself. Some of yall may ask what in the world is immunocompromised??  Well let me break it down for you… My body has a weakened immune system. It basically acts like a child's immune system to where I can get sick- it seems just by seeing someone sneeze or cough sometimes. Then when I do become sick, it t

  Have any of y’all seen someone get out of their car in a handicap spot and think to yourself “oh they don’t look like they're sick or disabled to need that spot.” or have you seen someone in the store using one of the electric carts and said something to them along the lines of “Well you don’t look like you need that cart, you don’t look sick!”? Well I have had that kind of thing happen to me more than once and let me tell you it isn’t the best feeling being told how you're supposed to look in order to use the special tools that are there to help you get around or to make things easier on yourself. I didn’t realize when I first got diagnosed that being “sick” had a certain look to it but apparently society has made it that way and it sucks. I can't even begin to tell you how many times I have been given looks or had snarky comments made to my face about how I should leave things for the ACTUAL sick people. Also I can't count how many times someone has told me “Well

  Sleep is definitely an important thing our bodies need in order to function properly on our day to day basis. Now I know there is ALWAYS the “recommended” amount of sleep you should get as the health wiz nuts say. Although I believe it is also based on the type of person you are as in what you do on a day to day basis and also if you have any health factors play into effect on it as well. So now I am sure y’all are trying to guess where I am going with this and you're right… I am talking about Sleeeeeeep!!!   Restless nights have been a recurring thing for me lately and let me tell you it is NOT fun! Dealing with days after days that you don’t get to sleep starts to wear on your body and especially your mind. I already deal a lot with anxiety and depression, so not having much sleep doesn’t help with those either. I have realized a lot lately I have been needing to take more naps during the day than what I used to do. It’s just then when I do take the extra naps during the day

  Well lately I haven’t been writing much and there is a lot that goes into that. One of the reasons is I lost my motivation to finish the blogs I had already halfway written and also lost the motivation to start any new ones. I am slowly getting it back, I just have decided to take it one step at a time and see where it all leads me. This blog I am gonna try to explain a lot in it so bare with me while we all go on this rollercoaster ride together. So we all know I have anxiety and suffer from depression as well but along with all that I am an empath which basically means I can feel literally everyone’s emotions. Honestly it is pretty cool but there are times where I just wish I could turn it off because I am overwhelmed with all the feelings I get at once. For instance being in large crowds is hard for me at times. I am also able to take on people's negative energy and help them turn it into positive energy. It does hurt me some to do it because it is as if their energy becomes m

  So we will get a tad personal about myself with this blog. How many of y’all suffer with anxiety? Show of hands?? Mine is straight up! Anxiety can get the best of us sometimes but we can handle it to the best of our abilities. Now it may be medication that helps us, taking a hot bath, a weighted blanket, or even a really tight hug from someone we love. I deal with different levels of anxiety at times. Sometimes I don’t even know why i am anxious and it sucks trying to explain that to someone. Lately I have had some small triggers from a previous situation I was in that set me off at times and it's hard to come out of it but I am slowly learning that I am safe now. Gypsy danger has learned my triggers and what helps me get out of my anxiety attacks. He has also learned what comforts me throughout the day to help me not go into my anxiety’s attacks. Those things he has paid attention to and learned from have helped me tremendously!  Honestly I just had an anxiety attack last night

This blog will be a little different. I have been posting about my past and how I have coped with it before and after. These next couple blogs will be more on where I am at right now with my health and a little into my mental health. I do feel it is important to talk about the past because I believe it shapes your future and present self; but I want to keep a good balance so we will talk about my present self right now. Maybe that way I can hopefully keep yall coming back to read more. So here we go! Over the week of Christmas I was admitted into the hospital because on one of my scans I had to have done, the ER doctors found a collection of something on part of my liver which wasn’t there before. Of course I was super upset to the point I was in tears because I didn’t want to spend Christmas in the hospital! I’ve already done that too many times and I felt that it was time that I get some type of break from my illness (wishful thinking right?). Plus nobody wants to spend Christmas alo