#Team No Sleep

 Sleep is definitely an important thing our bodies need in order to function properly on our day to day basis. Now I know there is ALWAYS the “recommended” amount of sleep you should get as the health wiz nuts say. Although I believe it is also based on the type of person you are as in what you do on a day to day basis and also if you have any health factors play into effect on it as well. So now I am sure y’all are trying to guess where I am going with this and you're right… I am talking about Sleeeeeeep!!!

  Restless nights have been a recurring thing for me lately and let me tell you it is NOT fun! Dealing with days after days that you don’t get to sleep starts to wear on your body and especially your mind. I already deal a lot with anxiety and depression, so not having much sleep doesn’t help with those either. I have realized a lot lately I have been needing to take more naps during the day than what I used to do. It’s just then when I do take the extra naps during the day I don’t sleep much at night if I even sleep at all  which then is an even bigger struggle inside itself. Because of all this I am having to learn a new balance between what I can do during the day with the certain amount of naps I can take so that I can sleep at least somewhat of a good amount during the night.

The days after the nights that I get none to maybe a couple hours of sleep is pretty sluggish for me. I try to get up but it's hard to drag myself out of bed. Honestly It's either my doggo Ellie pulling me out of bed because she is hungry and or needs to potty or it's my own bladder and stomach that needs me to get up. More often than not it’s usually Ellie who gets me up and out of bed haha. Of course when anyone hears how bad my struggles are with sleeping they always try to give me “suggestions” or “advice” on what I could do about it and say certain things like...  “Well Kayla why don’t you just nap during the day??”, “Maybe go to bed earlier at night?”, “What about meditating before bed?”,  “Why don’t you just take a sleeping pill?”or one of my personal favorites, “Why don’t you just close your eyes and go to sleep”... Of course after all those I am fed up and usually say something along the lines of… WELL KAREN let me tell you why literally NONE of those work  because I totally would if it would actually help me sleep! But napping during the day makes sleeping at night even harder and will make me even more tired. Then when I wake up from the “suggested nap” we are just back to square one of exhaustion …. (BTW nothing against people named Karen... It just fit the moment, love yall Karen's xoxo). Sorry y’all I really really love my sleep and can get rude when people suggest things that seem silly to me after I have been dealing with #Team No Sleep for 7 going on 8 years now.

Insomnia isn’t the easiest to understand or try to comprehend if you haven't experienced it before. So I understand people wanting to help but I promise you I have probably tried all the tips and tricks more than once and they don't work. Don't get me wrong I don’t mind the advice. It's just sometimes it irritates me when it involves advice on how to sleep because I’ve been dealing with it for a while now and the only thing that kinda works is a sleeping pill that is over the counter but even then sometimes that doesn’t even work. 

I know that I kind of went on a rampage here with this blog but I felt like y'all needed some truth and blunt honesty on how my life works most of the time and then how I feel about certain things that comes with my unique situation called my life. Trust me if I could explain what insomnia is like without anyone having to experience it I would but it’s really hard to explain it to someone who can just close their eyes and fall asleep at night with absolutely no help. I don’t remember what that is like anymore, which you would think is weird because for 17 years I slept a lot actually a lot more than normal. That was one of the reasons my mother took me to get checked out because it was an insanely odd amount of sleep I was getting but still waking up exhausted like I never slept in the first place. Anyways, sorry it's taken me so long to get this blog out there. Sleep has come difficult the past few days so I’ve been exhausted and haven’t had much energy to write. I do have some ideas for more things to write about Gypsy Danger actually helped me with the next blog idea which I am SUPER excited to write about! I hope everyone enjoyed this blog. Look out for the next one.

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